I remember when I started it reading about how often one should post to her blog… then I thought, If I don’t have anything worth saying, I’m not going to post – just for the sake of posting.
So I didn’t.
The silence on here for the better part of 2 years isn’t as simple as that. I’m not sure if I’ve had anything worth saying or not, but I know God has been speaking to me. Looking back over this blog, it’s so easy and evident to see all that He’s said and done in our lives and marriage over the years – all here in one place.
Blogging is such a snapshot of life for us and such an honest glimpse into into our lives – and years from now I want to be able to remember it all, or at least be reminded of what life was really like.
I remember in my early days of blogging getting upset about the number of comments – or lack thereof! – and thinking what’s the point? Now I know better. You write because there’s something creative that has to come out of you – not because it’s perfect, not because it’s finished, not because of the size or participation of your audience.
I’m coming up on a birthday – 29 on Saturday! – and it’s really funny to think of the ways I feel older and more grown up. There is so much more to our life in London than I’ve written – more to our actual lives than I’ve written. But surprisingly (to me perhaps more than anyone) I have gotten good at listening.
Not listening, anticipating what she’ll say so I can have a funny or witty retort.
Listening to her heart.
Silently, uninterruptedly listening to all things said and unspoken.
I love it.
So while there will be more writing and “speaking” on here, there is a much deeper, quieter listening happening here too.
Hopefully out of this quiet, pensive, meditative space something new will burst forth. That’s why I think I’m coming back.